Procrastination. Yes I am guilty of that sin. It's very hard to be motivated about my professional life if my social life is sort of in little chaos right now. As we get older we find tend to figure out our self more and more. In this process we fall in and out of love and in and out of friendships we get very selective about things that we really want and truly desire.
Some people tend to tell me I am procrastinator do to lack of interest in my field. I don't think that this is true, my procrastination has to deal with the environment i live in really odd neighborhood. My town is commuter town less then five miles away from great city of new york, yet with that there is a consequence. Living in my town of Cliffside park is nothing but a solitary confinement. It is truly the terrible place to live I understand that some people enjoy living small town lifestyle, however Cliffside isn't even a small town!!! It is actually considered to be Urban area, I have never seen place with so many people with no motivation maybe its soil or maybe it the air. Whatever it is its driving me nuts and i spend most of my time away from my house in order to get my creative juices flowing. I am pretty upset that I didn't manage to submit my work towards trace exhibit i really wanted to but it just ended up extending until the end. Blah I really gotta move out if not soon than in a year period and never look back at this town . Jersey city is one of the considerations but i am almost done with school so moving into Jersey city could possibly only created new sets of problems .
Moving somewhere where I can step out side of my house and see social and creative faces is something i really need. I am possibly looking towards Brooklyn New York or Philadelphia. Problems with that are money issue and even tho Philly tends to be cheaper than Brooklyn their prices in rent are raising dramatically as well. So who knows where the wind takes me.I really enjoy life in United States and i really want to make something out of it( I am originally from Serbia for those who don't know.) My point is I moved here and moving back without any achivments would be embarrassing i got to make something out of this little roller coaster of Communication Arts that I am involved, in order to really go back to Europe one day and say yes my life wasn't a waste and I've done things that I can be remembered for.
